August 29, 2014
I leave in seven days.
And to be honest, it hasn’t really hit me yet. I think it’s mostly due to the fact that I can’t grasp yet all the changes I will have to make. I don’t realize all the things that I have here and take for granted, but I know that one of the biggest challenge will be to make up for it once over there.
It’s hard to fully understand what is waiting for me on the other side of the planet. Yeah, sure, I have a pretty good idea considering my sister did the same thing three years ago. But really and truly, it’s too much to take in.
Now one question I get all the time: "Are you ready?"
The answer: "I was born ready." Just kidding, ha-ha I have no idea if I am, but I don’t think it really matters. I know that no matter what, I will always do my best, and for me, that thought alone is enough to keep me from losing my mind to panic.
I’m not saying that I’m not scared, because trust me, I am. I am afraid I won’t fit in. I’m afraid I won’t be good enough to train with the team. I’m afraid my concussion will come back. I’m afraid my Japanese won’t be good enough. I’m afraid to make mistakes. I’m afraid to fail.
But that being said, it leaves me a lot of room to surprise myself.
These past few days have been filled with work as well as the planning and organizing of my fundraiser which will take place at The Oak tomorrow, August 30th. Not exactly the best way to prepare for a one year trip...
Hopefully once this is done, I’ll be able to concentrate on this trip. I’ve already started packing, and I have also sent a few boxes with some articles I will be needing over there.
But when I think of it, the preparation for this trip started many years ago. Slowly but surely, my father prepared me for it; I have no idea if he knew I would do this or not, but as usual, he had his plans. Maybe that is why I don’t feel overwhelmed by this CRAZY adventure. I guess I will never truly realize the benefits of his coaching.
I leave in seven days...
... I leave in seven days!
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